spiteful eyes are watching me, in everything I do

I think I know

'Well I think I’ll head to bed now
try to forget this night 'cause
all my friends have gone home
to call it a night ‘cause they’ve all had a blast
and it’ll take at least till tomorrow
to remember just how all the stories really happened

I'll get to hear all about it
but that'll just make me feel worse
like how I'm feeling about how it's over
too late for me to come in late

I always take the wrong turns
'cause I try to drive the best I can,
I always end up missing the fun
this turn left me stranded at home with all the dishes

//I think I know / yeah I’ll throw myself a bash / I’ll invite no one / while I wait for someone to come and crash it for me / la la hurrah I’ll crank up the silence and play solitaire / make them wish I had been there / la la hurrah for me... la la hurrah //

I'm feeling like I'm falling out of the circle
and it's not what I hoped for
but maybe this circle is not what I'm here for
and maybe, maybe I should turn off this turnaround
try driving by the road signs you've given me
and maybe, maybe by then I won't need to run

so I think I know
all this fun isn't worth the time I spend trying to keep up
help me be content with You'

-Bright Noise

This is an old bit... a punk rock wannabe, but I can relate to some of it. Go figure... I'm trying to slow down and let God point out what He wants me busy with.




Anyway... something else to think about....

'If it was God's will to bruise His own Son (Isaiah 53:10), why shouldn't He bruise you? What shines forth and reveals God in your life is not your relative consistancy to an idea of what a saint should be, but your genuine, living relationship with Jesus Christ, and your unrestrained devotion to Him wether you are well or sick.'
-Mr. Oswald Chambers